It's 2012

yeah, boi it's 2012, why do i suddenly back writing after a few months..hurm, nice question.
answer 1: coz i feel like to.
answer 2: coz i have too much interesting stuff to share, better for me to throw it here than spit it out. who would bother.
answer 3: coz i want you to know, so read and digest.

ok, for this post, i want to point out sum issues that bother me in 2012.

Issue 1 : Money management
i did work during summer, almost a month in January.
income: about 900nz.
expenditure (during the 1 month stay) : 500nz
so, for the sun burning and survival time camping for the month, i got 400nz.
somehow, i spent it all on the next month. so none left yet in debt. always spent more than given.
(~1300nz a month), sigh.
solution (after 3 years) : open a serious saver account in anz. will this help. we'll see.

Issue 2 : Immigration NZ
why you such a burden. why suddenly ask for a police cert then after i pull my effort on getting it done, i got a 4 month visa only as an exception of police cert. hey, i did sent it, you might just have had miss placed it.
solution: rang the courier and email the immigration dept after a month without news as if they have received it. After a month, few days ago, they emailed me saying that they finally sighted my police cert together with my medical check up then will issue my full visa this week. ohh yea, after a month baby, as they say, never lose hope.

ok that's all, not gonna pour out to much atm. lets have an awesome year.

getting over such a feelin'

i wrote these lines on 10/7/2011, today i looked back to it, knowing it's true, it's over now.

for these feelings that make me feel it,
by all those days i've been working on,
for all the cheers that now i fears,
it wont come again,take it back and let it die,
is it any wonder anymore, so stop to pretend,pretending it’s all here, coz these sense has met it end.

thanks for the memories.

life updates.

say say say!! haha. my sigma 10-20mm is just on the way here, might arrive tomorrow. great! my shutter count has just hit 10k after a year 2 month, which i could say ok la..anyway,i'm on a break now and i'll be heading dunedin for malaysian games (bersatu). I'll be playing table tennis, sepak takraw and hockey, kinda weird eh. ok, the bad news is my budget is real off now, coz i have only about 300 dollar in my account which is too little to be spend for another 1 month solid. i've been thinking of buying alotta things and here's my wishlist and plans for now:

1) grab an iphone 3gs/4

2) buy a LED monitor 24 inch

3) get a speedlite

4) hit sum slopes (snowboarding)

5) sell my skyline R33

6) sell sum of my stuffs on trade me for cash

7) do sum photography again, of coz

8) get my room tidy,hahaha. oh yeah.

till next time.

wide lens

here's my wide angle lens wishlist, i've should have one of them if i didn't lose my money-shit!

Tokina 11-16mm f/2.8 (USD830)
Sigma 10-20/4-5.6 HSM (USD500)
Sigma AF 8-16mm f/4.5-5.6 DC HSM (USD 810)

Canon 10-22mm f 4.5-4.5 EF-S USM (USD 880)

coz my wallet is pretty much naked, i'm buying sigma 10-22mm at the moment. i'm not intending to grab the same lens of f3.5 version coz it coz about USD120 more and i'm shooting landscape and not action. A max apeture of f4 is enough i think. the review wasn't bad, there group of this lens on flickr is quite huge and great photo of these lens are shown which is very attractive. i'll give a try.

WTF

2011, i'm lost, i don't know what i'm doing, i got cheated, i lost my money, my friend ditch me, i miss home, my back neck in pain, i cried more than i laugh, i'm not enjoying my life, i barely go to class, i got bad test result....

i turn to think not to give a fuk to anyone, people are just so untrue, the only people i trust is my family, i love all of you. i see my bros and sis all having a great life, i'm proud of them and i miss you guys. i miss pouring out my problems to my mum personally. last time, i told her that i'm not enjoying my life here coz i feel not belong here. most people look up for me when they need me, i cried when my mate next door about to go back to malaysia last 2 months but this 2 months he's too busy with his life,where i'm not a part of it,haha, fuk you! i miss myself last year, i feel last year was great, i miss smiling all the time till at one time there's sumone ask me can't you stop smiling,hahah! yeah, people, life sucks and things change.

the only that caught my attention now is photography, i wanna portrait the emptiness of me through all the shutters crack and i believe this could release all the pressures hold.

till next time.

'Believe in yourself"

yes,in whutever ya do,that's the key that moves ya,

for real.

Photoshoot 1: Grafitti

22/10/2010, 6.30pm:

Ok, the plan was to go snap sum sunset views on a random beach. The driver went off the map and took us to this amazing abandoned hut (used to be a canterbury yard centre at since 1942 till prolly 10 years ago).

Whut's grafitti:

Graffiti and graffito are from the Italian wordgraffiato("scratched"). "Graffiti" is applied in ar to works of art history produced by scratching a design into a surface. The first known example of "modern style" graffiti survives in the ancient Greek city of Ephesus (wiki-not reliable enough,haha.). Now we have it all around the world, these talent should be recognized and bring forward. It's an art.

Model: Jazmie...

Lesson- set the size on camera to larger dimension (up to RAW).

-bring more mates,shirts,stuff.

-focus also on the scene,action (not only portrait) and stuff around.

p/s: make your own interpretation of these pix.

I'm Justforreal,

Zairi Zazli.

Sydney!!

Here are sum pics taken there..

NSW,sydney, 1st-5th August 2010.

At Max Breaner choc cafe. Muka mcm tak excited lgsg,haha.

The italian hot choc was superb nice.

At the paddy's market. A chinese market that sell lots of souvenirs.

Now i know, those koala i got is sumthin' cheap as.

Plan view of coogee beach. Great shot Mr.photographer.

Here we are- me,wannas,min and tawfik.

Whuts up,dude. not much people at the beach,oh yea..fasting month!haha.

After the shooting at bondi beach.

erm..plus,before the fine for the parking ticket,

sbb 2 dollar, hlg 84 dollar..haha.

Got hundreds of pics but too bad just got to pick few random ones..

Thanks for having us there..

See ya guys again next time.

update!haha.

hey!!!whuts up,people. oh,it's been 5 months since my last post..yes, it is, pretty long ago eh. hmm...i knew i've been busy lately, lots of assignment hittin' non-stop and due to the earthquake recently in christchurch,the sec. term become a bit compact. Besides all these stuffs, i've been busy with hari raya which fills the slots of my weekend with open houses, oh,the one month raya gonna end soon,better get the puase 6 going. I guess the best part of my life now, is that i'm getting to know a gurl, my junior back in school. yeah,we get from merely invisible friends in facebook before and now it's getting a bit tight. oh yea..maybe sounds a bit crazy but i think i'm starting to fall for her,proved the incident yesterday about her status thingy which dragged much of my concern,just a highlight of how i turn to care..oh,it's all gud and fine, i knew she's been honest all the way, i never casted a doubt about it. oh yea, i really wanted to come back home and meet her but in the meantime let's see how it goes, it's all depends on my practical work app. hmm..since the increase of gst from 12.5% to 15% here in new zealand, i feel like selling my skyline coz it drinks so much fuel. ok, fuel price rising up from 171.3 dollar (mobil) to 180.3 dollar per liter, 9 cent per liter! can't afford it anymore,haha. i might find a car which consume less oil- a 1.6/1.8 car will do.

ok, that's it, my current situation,hope everything's going great. peace.

though miles may lie between us we are never far apart,
for love doesn't count miles;it's measured by the heart

-copied from her,haha.

I'm 21. thanks!

It’s just a few hours before I can say I’m 21. When I was a kid I start to image what will I be when I reached twenty ish, and now I find myself on the right track, the track that’s always appears on my dream and on the planner outlined in my head years ago. I’d grown up listening to rap song and that’s the time when too phat hit radio airplay staples. These rap can affect the minds of youth today in such a positive way and I believe in magical words that groove me today. I used to be a kiddo which obsessed with badminton that I keep on hittin’ shuttle to each corners of the court everyday and dream to be the national player one day. Things are better now than ever before, i'm on my way of being a chemical engineer,I’d confidence in myself and never hesitate when it deals with my dreams. I put the most effort in it and aim for the best. I believe I’m the best around, word is bond. I’m not a superstar and I never claimed to be one. I’m just myself and it is self explanatory. There were times I feel like I can't win,my heart is screaming although nobody can hear my cries but I got up again and I hand the game thanks Allah for making it possible every time I faced obstacles and plights. I live with pressure coz it’s a force that always push me to put efforts in study and others. I knew, peeps can’t stop hating sumtimes when you're on top of them, so they talking and gossiping like "we gotta top you". It’s normal then,coz we’re human and not dancers which dance to the tune and never skip a beat. Human make errors and these errors tell us to be better and that’s why I tell myself to always keep my feet to the ground. Ok, forget the ugly days homie, life goes on and just keep your head up, even when right goes wrong, we never see the future but the things meant to be is the best for every of us, it's always the time to crack a lil' smile and celebrate what you believe in. To my parents, thanks for the birthday present (skyline R33) but the bigger thanks is for the love,being my closest friends, always were supportive whatever it was about and thank you both for believing never casted a doubt, I need you like i need the air that I breathe. All I hope for now is to keep doing you proud. These also goes to my beloved siblings and long,still remember those time when i was a kid and each time we spend together till present,I cherish those moments. The biggest present ever is from Allah the almighty for still givin’ me the chance to wake up every morning with my heart still pumping the blood through my veins all over my body and make me alive. Ok, not to forget my teachers that make my dream possible,friends and my besties for be gud to me, I won’t ask a party for me, just that I hope our ukhuwah is the one that leads to taqwa and last forever, the love never ceased.

Somebody told me once that patience is a virtue and true love is worth waiting for although it might just hurt you. If it comes right back, which means it’s truly destined. I promise to hold back the tears, never says never.

I take inspiration from the past heinous situation and creating meditation for my own tribulations. For every dark nite, there’ll be a bright day after that,so no matter how hard it get, sticks your chance out,keep your head up and handle it.

I’m just forreal,
Zairi Zazli.

CAPE bbq.

I'd join a bbq specially made for 1st pro Chemical and Process Student (CAPE) student on 17th March. yes, i'm glad that i'm apart of it. ok,it started at 5.00pm but i came a bit late, dealing with some emotions back in the crib,haha. The weather is a bit chilly even it's a pretty bright day. The food was great and the gud thing about it is that it's halal and ya can take as much as ya want. however,i don't really eat a lot that time as quite busy chitty chat with some mates. Anyway, it's not just a boring bbq, these seniors had a plan an initiation for us! We're a divided into groups of 7-8 and each of us need to do some crazy stuff by turn. there are about 5 check points.

check point 1- run about 100m then quickly drink a green nasty like juice which is a blend of some stuff. there're also a layer of brownish mud ish which i was urge to swallow it.

check point 2- put your head on a 1.5m mop stick then spin(run) around it 10 rounds,no pause. then, while in dizzyness, make a wooolie poolie 3 times.

check point 3-a quiz is given and even you get it right, you'll get two lollies ish which is actually a greet paintball pellet, taste dizgusting . luckly,it's non-toxic,someone swallowed it,haha.

check point 4- push up 10 times while being splashed and sprayed with some water.

check point 5- take a spoon of hot tobasco sauce. crazy hot like hell.

This is done in few fraction of second as other group members are waiting for their turn (by passing on the yellow helmet).

Overall, we had fun.

prep

Yeah, already got a room, a nice one, it was like 6m x 6m and fully furnished. Actually,it was quite easy to find a room, just that I’m not really searching for it. Oh, really miss my family back in Malaysia, we spent all the gold time together, it was lovely when everything was crazy cool and went all way smooth and sweet like candy, I smile. Ok, the first four nites I slept at a friend house before having my bed with my blue duvet and a bouncy pillow. Last Wednesday, I'd complete my enrolment and I’m eager to start my second year as a chemical engineer student, sumthing great awaiting for me,I guess and I can’t wait to deal with it. Besides all the lectures, I got 4 hours lab all day, and it was interesting to notice the fact that I’m a busy man this year, everyday like 9am-5pm,babe,such a motivating fact. Anyway, the gud thing is that I’d geared up mentally to face all this and what’s next is to get my bag with all the books and note pads, my alarm fully functioning, my focus back on and pushin’ my laziness away real far. I feel like I pretty much moved by all this prep that I’ve forgotten about love. Ok,they say, junior s are here and what’s your step, get one hook up,man. I was like is there a chance to get back into love when there are more guys than gurls came,haha. Ok, a bunch of junior came around singlin’ minglin’ fresh and hot from oven baked but I don’t rush to the pretty gurls and say,just call me by my name and no abang eh coz I’m a cool man, am i. Somehow, one question triggered, should I give a shit about it. Once again, summer break is about to reach the end but I’m glad that I have a great time.

p/s: oh, last week me and my batch went to sumner to celebrate our anniversary here, it's great to get our latest post there. one single scoop of caramel,please...dope.

Just forreal,
Zairi Zazli.

check in

It's 8th feb 2010, these 3 months passed and flew away real quick. ok, tonight, 9.30pm, i'll be heading back to christchurch,again for study ish, of course. my summer break almost reach it's end. I'd just begin to pack up stuffs into my luggage, not tryin' to highlight how gud i'm on doing these last minute work but what imma say is that i don't feel like going back yet, nahmean. alotta thoughts playin' in my mind, not that i'm worried of what i'll be facing over there, just that my heart feels heavy as stone, got to admit, this holiday is real awesome, gonna miss all the gud time here esp those with my beloved fam. how i wish all the gud moments never end. oh, not going to write long, wanna continue packing up stuff and enjoy these last precious moments. love.

Rise and Shine 2010

It’s time to shake hands with 2010 and welcoming the new decade. Definitely it’s time to create more glories. I expect my life to be busier than 2009 while seeking for more great opportunities and gud things to come along. Hopefully, this is a year of every gud and positive words anyone can think of. ‘Rise and Shine’, yeah it’s the theme for myself this year (never had one before..), the time to keep you people’s head up and eyes open. The arrival of 2010 also signals me for a new change in the way I live, speak and dress, eventhough the change might not be too significant. People might know me as someone with a dishevelled hair and a baggy pant. Oh well, I’ll change my hairstyle and liberate some of the funky xl, teen ish shirts which are spilling out of my closet and in the meantime will have a slamming update on my wardrobe. Topman ish will do the trick. Ok, for about one year living in New Zealand, there’s so much I learned and faced. Beneath the harmony surface, certain shifts and frictions occurred sometimes. It’s undeniable that there were few uncountable times where I’m grappling with my emotions due to my simple mistakes, unsatisfied and discontented act by few people around, inexplicitly said. Anyway, calls were made and most of it greatly solved,cool! Frankly speaking, I set my mind to be playful and relax to compensate the hectic life of 2008 and fortunately I didn’t neglected my occupation to study and strikes ok grades even I usta skipped classes esp in the morning, averagely 3-4 hours a week on last sem, diss to my bad habit of oversleeping. Anyway, what I can say is that I’m on the right track, thanks Allah for blessing me and always giving me chances and opportunities to success in this land of kiwi, Alhamdulilah. I’ll be more systematic and responsible. It was a great year 2009 and I bet 2010 could be better, Insyaallah.

here's the plan,


1) education
-have a planner and jot down every details on it so that i'll be more organised. (2009 free planner left blank,didn't use it.)
-buy all the necessary textbooks,secondhand will do. (2009, i took 7 subject but bought only 2 books, the rest i borrowed sometimes which at last cost me 25 dollar fined.)
-start hittin' my foot in the library and make it like my sec. crib. (sec. sem 2009, only 5 times studied there.)
-do more disscussions with mates, someone of my kind -be my guest. (2009,basically,I studied alone coz it's already study week and i really don't have much time.)
-first thing first, no delay, no procrastine, reply text on time. (2009, the way i treat time is quite appaling.)


2) social
-make more friends, keep in contact.
-join a tennis club and keep active, gym too.
-minimize time online, go outdoor, live life better.
-get hook up in islamic acts more frequent.
-take care belongings carefully and control expenditure wisely.

random pixs of 2009,





Let’s put some hope and turn it into reality.
smile!


Just Forreal,
Zairi Zazli

reply

erm..ya guys knew that i'm not about replying all your texts or if i do replyed, its a bit tardy and i'm really sori for that. it's like somethin' rare if ya can chat with me all nite long, without a pause coz i usta left the conversation ended with question. it has been few time where i missed few big chances due to not/late replying texts. i believe this happened to me since early this year and i don't really know why. hey, could anyone tell me. now, i'm searching the exact antidot to cure this disease out and avoid it from letting it to be a bad habit of me. owh, yeah,Imma make this clear and state here that from this sec. onwards, i'll try to reply all texts so please don't ever hesitate to send me a msg or buzz me up anytime. i'll now reply ya guys comments on my blog posts and start droppin' comments on yours.

verse1.mp3 (ii)

Its that like i told you folks, done with the sec verse, quite funny all the wordy went up in my mind while i'm about to sleep 2.12am yesterday. its all gud till few hours ago when i clicked a link, letting all the lines goes missing coz forgot to save it,damn. somehow, here you go, sec. verse of the story.

Verse 2

The prob is you never say love till jan 12
after making my heart broken small pieces
and turn my head all around, messes
oh god, atleast i love hear you confess
you want me more than my cash
i thought it was just a dream
till then i knew i'm not your top cream
i'm just rollin' over a slippy stream
ever since i felt like fallin'
down to the earth, too deep creepin'
spirits rushin' nowhere,love's in the damp air
leavin' my heart flee away and fly
meet mr west touching up the sky
its just a tale-sign, i don't get where to draw the line
some said glory back up standing after failin'
yeah, it is,while creatin' some chances in
peepin' for a gud kick-start, new beginning
coz i adore to see some changes comin'
and acknowledge that you'd tryin'
witness your two lil eyes are fryin'
oh yes, after one or two nites cryin'.
hope these wishes could steal
takeaway my pain and whip back still.

Just Forreal,
Zairi Zazli

verse1.mp3

Verse1

Look for me! Young, B
Cruisin down the westside - high, way
Doing what we like to do - our, way
Eyes behind shades, this necklace the reason
all of my dates been blind dates
But gud news today, I got my best girl with me
A cute lil gurl, with a big smile no shady,
Only time we don't speak is during "Sex and the City"
She gets Carrie fever, but soon as the show is over
She's right back to being my lover
Coz mami's a rider, and I'm a roller
Put us together, how they gonna stop both of us?
coz whenever she lacks, I'm right over her shoulder
and even when I'm off track mami keep me focused
So please girl, don’t roll, lets have a stroll
To the place we usta to be, to the one place we’re from
It’s the time when you and me is one fam
lock this down in ya mind like it supposed to be
We don’t even care bout what they sayin’
Coz ---- that, its just you and me, hola!

Don't get wrong,not that i have my gurl now,haha, till the moment i'm writing this, its all ain't true, but we'll see. Lookin' for the sec. verse to come, hopefully with a nice chorus. Anyone....hehe.

Hari Raya Aidiladha.

Its been a while since my last post and those pal viewers were askin' for another one, and here it is. Its summer and its almost a month away since final year exam, hoping for the best for it to be. Its been now one fourth of the score and hope for better ish next year. I'm now in PJ for my summer break and its gud to be back home, how I miss all the great things here. Too much to say, to much to reminice, too much not to forget on how much I learn about livin'. Its been times where I felt weary and real tired out of all the ish I faced but it taught me a lot, I knew it. Back to theme of this raya aidiladha- sacrifice, I believe its somethin' worth doing for ya dream and love. I bet you hear this ish during talks and tazkirah back then but its all gud and you'll realise how important sacrificing is esp when you'd achieved ya goal one day. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all homies, peeps, click, bros and even those who aint know me, have a gud one, people!
p/s : just had takbir raye with my whole beloved family and can't say a word to describe how cool the flings running through my vein and get me awake.

to those related

Yeah, it's exam. prolly whut people used to do besides study this time around is minta maaf, kn.
It's been like 8 months since the day I stepped my foot here in new zealand, i didn't quite realised it's been this long. 8 month, guys! maybe I spent alotta time mostly studying, crackin' jokes and doing thangs with those in my batch and friends around here or just stayin' at my crib relaxin'. I'll say it was awesome! many people thought that i've changed by now, but i truly say that i'm just the same cat that you usta meet smashin' shuttles and hittin' ball on each corner of the courts years ago, yeah,the same old. I might have turned wiser as i grew up in many kinds of environments, met lotta people which some mind are simple but some just grind my temple and bullies as well as metador. I'm taking my time out just to ask for appologize as this might be the best time i have, i don't really know whuts going to be tomorrow. As i bustin freestyle flows and kept spittin' words while chattin' and unconsciously heart your heart, tellin' lie or even take advantage of ya, pardon any of my curses, i'm so sorry, i'm learning to better. to those people that just wanna let me down and plot for my fall, it just happened a fractions of second before i step up and move on. anyway, just to say, i'd forgived you guys, put a smile on ya face,haha. this post might seems a bit emotional but yeah it's my blog, you have nothin' to claim. this is my last post in this comin' 2 weeks time, study time.

yeah, this is a verse for my lovely batch, created months ago
- the juniors 09, we're just so gud!!

If I ever have one word to say,
I’ll say love as what it means to me
It means to you the same,
For the journey we began,
The same end, we end,
I still mesmerise when we meet together,
First sight of you causing exhilaration,
Pardon me; I shouldn’t make it a question,
We’re such one perfect team, ain’t no better
Laughers and screams joy we at do remember,
24 in a group, we’re like 48, what a loop,
Tail back to the spot
Alotta people think it’s been candy, sweet and dandy
yeah, it can be, minus all the envy
Jealousy from the eyes that sees
‘Batching’ they call, please just give us a shot,
To forget what’s achieved, it’s kinda lot
In solitude, I hope this never end,
Our friendship, relationship, we hold it neat,
Hoping this will remain to keep
In our memories till the time we sleep
I think of this rhyme special for you
Don’t forget us in whatever we do,
While give a blast when we at it,
And this time I really mean to say it.

I'm just for real,
Zairi Zazli.