getting over such a feelin'

i wrote these lines on 10/7/2011, today i looked back to it, knowing it's true, it's over now.

for these feelings that make me feel it,
by all those days i've been working on,
for all the cheers that now i fears,
it wont come again,take it back and let it die,
is it any wonder anymore, so stop to pretend,pretending it’s all here, coz these sense has met it end.

thanks for the memories.

life updates.

say say say!! haha. my sigma 10-20mm is just on the way here, might arrive tomorrow. great! my shutter count has just hit 10k after a year 2 month, which i could say ok la..anyway,i'm on a break now and i'll be heading dunedin for malaysian games (bersatu). I'll be playing table tennis, sepak takraw and hockey, kinda weird eh. ok, the bad news is my budget is real off now, coz i have only about 300 dollar in my account which is too little to be spend for another 1 month solid. i've been thinking of buying alotta things and here's my wishlist and plans for now:

1) grab an iphone 3gs/4

2) buy a LED monitor 24 inch

3) get a speedlite

4) hit sum slopes (snowboarding)

5) sell my skyline R33

6) sell sum of my stuffs on trade me for cash

7) do sum photography again, of coz

8) get my room tidy,hahaha. oh yeah.

till next time.

wide lens

here's my wide angle lens wishlist, i've should have one of them if i didn't lose my money-shit!

Tokina 11-16mm f/2.8 (USD830)
Sigma 10-20/4-5.6 HSM (USD500)
Sigma AF 8-16mm f/4.5-5.6 DC HSM (USD 810)

Canon 10-22mm f 4.5-4.5 EF-S USM (USD 880)

coz my wallet is pretty much naked, i'm buying sigma 10-22mm at the moment. i'm not intending to grab the same lens of f3.5 version coz it coz about USD120 more and i'm shooting landscape and not action. A max apeture of f4 is enough i think. the review wasn't bad, there group of this lens on flickr is quite huge and great photo of these lens are shown which is very attractive. i'll give a try.

WTF

2011, i'm lost, i don't know what i'm doing, i got cheated, i lost my money, my friend ditch me, i miss home, my back neck in pain, i cried more than i laugh, i'm not enjoying my life, i barely go to class, i got bad test result....

i turn to think not to give a fuk to anyone, people are just so untrue, the only people i trust is my family, i love all of you. i see my bros and sis all having a great life, i'm proud of them and i miss you guys. i miss pouring out my problems to my mum personally. last time, i told her that i'm not enjoying my life here coz i feel not belong here. most people look up for me when they need me, i cried when my mate next door about to go back to malaysia last 2 months but this 2 months he's too busy with his life,where i'm not a part of it,haha, fuk you! i miss myself last year, i feel last year was great, i miss smiling all the time till at one time there's sumone ask me can't you stop smiling,hahah! yeah, people, life sucks and things change.

the only that caught my attention now is photography, i wanna portrait the emptiness of me through all the shutters crack and i believe this could release all the pressures hold.

till next time.